“I am shook” is most often heard in our house when our teenagers are being sarcastic.
But what happens when our faith is shaken? I’m not talking about a lukewarm faith, but fear.
I’ve recently sought the help of a spiritual director trained in helping people discern their spiritual gifts. And while some of these gifts were easy to identify, she challenged me to use the next month to discern if Faith is one of my spiritual gifts (more on this in the coming weeks).
To say that I’ve had resistance is an understatement. I have never had such a deluge of fear rocking my boat in my life. The past week has been a stream of anxiety and tears, bordering on terror.
So here I sit, reminding myself that fear is the opposite of faith. When the apostles were in the boat with Jesus, and He is asleep while the boat is being battered with the storm, no one is stopping to pray. Instead they are physically fighting to keep the boat afloat, doing everything in their OWN power.
But their own power isn’t good enough.
And Jesus awakens and calms the storm. Nothing man could have done to save the boat would have worked, except having faith and praying.
I want to control everything. I want my hard work to fix everything.
In 1 John 4:18 we are told “There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear because fear has to do with punishment, and so one who fears is not yet perfect in love.”
Faith and Fear cannot coexist. So what are we to do when faced with fear and panic, and the need to fix our own problems?
1. Spend a minimum of 15 minutes in prayer with God, breathing deeply.
2. Remind myself that I am the daughter of the King. Fear does not come from God.
3. Repent (confession) – the grace received in sacraments is only available to the hearts that are prepared for those graces.
And when you are in a spiral of fear, it is the grace of God that allows us to love and trust, and build the faith necessary to squelch the fear.
Love to all,